As usual, you put words to something I have been feeling pretty heavily this week, Alex. My days have been pretty much the same lately: wake up, work, make dinner, watch TV, sleep. The other night I felt the need to journal and reflect on my ~feelings~ but the truth is, I’m just vibing rn. And that’s okay. I don’t have to make meaning or create a narrative out of something because I’m bored. It’s refreshing to look at life that way sometimes.
This hit me pretty hard. I've also been noticing how I make meaning and it stops me from living my life. I think it's a by-product of growing up in a religious home. I'm glad I'm not alone in it lol. The other day I had this weird thought of like, "What if I stopped caring about what people thought of me? But wait....what if I stopped caring about....EVERYTHING??!?!" And of course I won't actually stop caring about everything, but that little thought experiment reminded me how meaningless things are (which is OK) and that I can choose my own life. Thank you for sharing this!
As usual, you put words to something I have been feeling pretty heavily this week, Alex. My days have been pretty much the same lately: wake up, work, make dinner, watch TV, sleep. The other night I felt the need to journal and reflect on my ~feelings~ but the truth is, I’m just vibing rn. And that’s okay. I don’t have to make meaning or create a narrative out of something because I’m bored. It’s refreshing to look at life that way sometimes.
This hit me pretty hard. I've also been noticing how I make meaning and it stops me from living my life. I think it's a by-product of growing up in a religious home. I'm glad I'm not alone in it lol. The other day I had this weird thought of like, "What if I stopped caring about what people thought of me? But wait....what if I stopped caring about....EVERYTHING??!?!" And of course I won't actually stop caring about everything, but that little thought experiment reminded me how meaningless things are (which is OK) and that I can choose my own life. Thank you for sharing this!